Hello everyone!

This is not my usual day to post, but I could not stay quiet about what God showed me yesterday.

Last night during squad church, I came in tired and ready for bed. My mind was distracted, and I honestly did not expect much from the night. But when one of our leaders, Amanda, began to speak, her words stirred something in me. She asked a question that I have not been able to stop thinking about: What are you hungry for?

That question made me stop and think about what I am truly feeding on. Am I hungry for God, or am I filling myself with the things of the flesh? It is so easy to fill our lives with things that do not last. Sometimes we are so full of what the flesh wants that there is no room left for righteousness.

She asked us three questions to pray over as we went into communion and worship. What are you full of? What are you craving? What will you eat?

As I sat in the quiet, God began to show me what I am full of. My heart is full of noise and distraction. My attention is wrapped up in things that do not draw me closer to Him. He showed me that social media has become something I let take up far too much space. It is what I reach for when I wake up and what I hold before I sleep. It gives comfort but not peace. It fills time but not my soul. Even good things can become harmful when they take God’s place, and that is what I had let happen.

Then I asked myself what I am craving. Deep down, I crave to be seen, to be known, and to be loved. But none of those things can satisfy the way God can. I have come to realize that nothing else matters except that God loves me. Everything else in this world will fade away, but that truth will never change. His love is constant, His peace is steady, and His presence is what my soul truly longs for. I have been craving the things that fade, when all along, God has been offering me what lasts forever.

Then came the final question, what will I eat? What will I choose to feed myself with? Because what I feed will grow. If I keep feeding my flesh with distraction, distraction will rule me. But if I feed my spirit with truth, faith will grow in its place.

This week, God put it on my heart to fast from social media. For me, that is stepping outside of my comfort zone. I use it to stay connected and feel in control, but I know it has been keeping me from true stillness with Him. I want to start my mornings with His Word instead of my phone. I want to end my nights in prayer instead of scrolling. This fast is me choosing to make space for God again, to quiet the noise and listen for His voice.

A few nights ago, one of my leaders said something that I cannot stop thinking about. She told me that when Jesus left heaven, He left His home. He left His comfort zone for all of us.I had never thought about it like that before. If Jesus could leave His comfort to save me, then I can leave mine to serve Him.

I am not perfect, but these are things I am going to absolutely try my hardest to live out. I do not want to go through the motions anymore. I want every day to bring me closer to God. Following Jesus requires sacrifice because He Himself was the sacrifice. If He could give everything for me, then I can give up the things that pull me away from Him.

So if I were to answer that question again, what am I hungry for? I would say I am hungry for God. I am hungry for His Word, His peace, His presence, and His purpose. I am hungry to live a life that reflects Him more than it reflects me.

Thank You, God, for showing me what I was full of. Thank You for revealing what I have been craving. And thank You for teaching me what to feed on so that I can truly live.

See you all soon for another update :)